GOOOOOOR ! GOOOOOOOOOO !
GOOOOOOOOOR !
GRAHHH ! GRAHH ! GRAHH
!
Grah gooooor
! Ghahh ! Graaarr ! Greeeeer ! Grayowhr !
Greeeeee
GRAHHRR ! RAHHR
! GRAGHHRR
! RAHR
!
RAHR ! RAHHR ! GRAHHHR ! GAHHR ! HRAHR !
BE NOT
SUGAR BUT BE LOVE
looking for sugar ! GAHHHHHHHH !
ROWRR !
GROOOOOOOOOOH !
Many decades ago in San Francisco, lying on the couch,
reading the newly written
first Ghost Tantra [above] as
it unveiled to my eyes and ears, I feel a ripple, maybe a shudder, of embarrassment and laugh at myself.
Where is the beauty that I expect
after my experience of that
ball of silence promising me
ninety-nine tantras to the goddess? I remember
Robert Creeley’s admonition to believe in the experience of writing the poem. I look at the page again — it brings love looking for sugar! I know that there are
to be ninety-eight more of these. I’m sure
of it.
The next day Ghost Tantra 2 appears and speaks in “beast language” . . . the Tantra waves baby arms at me and gives me news of the great Tibetan
poet Milarepa who is imprinting himself
on the poem, becoming a “mystic
experience” — and tells me that everything lies in front of me not in the past. Yes, it is a mystic experience and is my self-experience which
can be laughable as easily as loaded with torment. Maybe some beauty that I do not expect will occur in a different guise or body or body of words.
Next, Ghost Tantra 3 brings its own announcement with a cigar
and cherries, and the sounds
that begin to feel familiar — “grooooooooor yahh-yort gahhr.”
Immediately
afterward, Tantra 4 carries
long howls, brings
gardens with cool shadows,
and sings of youth and liberation. Sounds
of the molecular body account for the fifth Tantra.
Tantra 8 has the rose and lily-lovely cheek of the goddess
appearing. Belief is beginning to push the edge of dubiety back.
Tantra
13 begins,
“OH LOVELY LINE BETWEEN DAY AND DREAM.” I am “pleased and richly placid,” I am sentient
and this flow of language seems
to be conscious, and is its own being.
Can these, in fact, bring
changes to the universe, as tantras should do? I’m
changing.
Once comic books had words like “CLANG” and the ancient Greek poem says “KLANG.” Did Goethe write Faust or did Faust
create Goethe?
I am excited with the existence coming into being — I have
brought it about.
*
Now it is time to pack my bag for the air flight
to Mexico City and the long drive to Huautla
de Jiménez — and the journey into the mountains of Oaxaca .
I write Tantra 15b in my notebook
as the plane departs San Francisco for Mexico City . I have no idea what I’m doing — just writing. I sit in the near empty plane with a swelling
sense of meditation, feeling the plane’s metal
walls shudder with thoughtless physical pleasure. Above a central California of the Sixties
I am thrilled with the magic entering
Tantra 16. By the time the plane
lands in Mexico City there is little doubt
left. In the airport the sadness
of all of everything strengthens me.
We drive across the desert stopping
sometimes to look at roadside botany. Hours later, we turn off the worn asphalt and enter
the mountains into an adventure of thunder and lightning
storms and deserted, roadside, cliff edges and narrower “trails”
with pounding torrents crushing
them — no campesino or burro to be seen in the steep craggy latenight flashes
of a landslide drive. Waking in the morning in the small pueblo of Huautla de Jiménez, in a quieter
rain, we drive from the country town to empty
cow pastures and carefully make cultures
of psilocybes, sterilizing the instruments with a portable
burner, propping a tarp of waterproof canvas over our heads, and our sterilized instruments make clean
cuts in the small mushrooms. In the early afternoon the curandera
María Sabina allows us into her chanting ceremony. Lightning is flashing
and thunder booming through the uncovered
windows of her home on a high road. Later that day carrying our broken
movie camera, we listen to the stories of Isauro Nave, a curandero of
the Leaves of the Good Shepherdess, in his hacienda. A few days later, we are in a rural Mexican airport
and begin flying
to San Francisco . At home,
in a flat overlooking the Golden Gate and waves crashing on Point Bonita, I resume writing the Tantras.
About this time I struggle
in my writing with my
shyness and an urge to explore self-dramatization — to attempt
a non-mimetic poetry which would not be descriptive of the ordinary world but would be at one with creation of muscular
music coming from the body and organs and inspiring sounds and “pictures” from that
source.
I believe that a poem I make is part of myself like an organ or spirit-body, and these poem-tantras are becoming a body
and growing up — having a life of their own. This is not hard to imagine
for a young poet who believes
in the divinity of Blake and Shelley, and in the paintings of Clyfford Still and Jackson Pollock
as a part of those artists’ being.
It was, and is, part of my art to believe that all conceptions of boundaries are lies . . .
As the Tantras move forward
and as the ball of silence from which they sound-out
is both more clear and more elusive, I consider
them carefully. I can feel the spirit of Marilyn Monroe (Tantra 39) entering them the day after her death in 1962. It is only right;
it is a business of the goddess. I like the mammalian music when I declaim
the poem. Now the title occurs to me “Ghost” from the German “Geist” or soul — Spirit Tantras — Ghost Tantras. I am moved by Brahms’ Four Serious Songs
as they sing, in German, the Preacher
of the Old Testament’s concern with the spirit of men and the spirit of the beasts and how one goes down under the earth and the other goes out, out, out. Huge low silences and huge high silences
are occurring. Tantra 49, “SILENCE
THE EYES! BECALM THE
SENSES!” has an extending and extended life.
A year or two later, Bruce Conner and I go to the San Francisco
Zoo to record lion roars and snow leopard
growls for a sound-play I have written. The newly published
first edition of this book is in my back pocket and through
a lucky event we end up in the lion house,
and I yell this Tantra to the four maned males of the building. They roar back with me and we sing it together.
The five of us are deeply
pleased; also I am profoundly shaken and then shaken again when Bruce plays back the tape he made with his high fidelity
machine. A few years later a public television group is making documentary films of the new generation of poets and asks me to read again to the lions and again they roar with me. The film was shown on TV and
now it can be found on the internet.
From Ghost Tantra 90 on, the stanzas
build to power and the final
ones close by hugely shouting
into the dense
mattress-like curtain of material reality, until
it begins to lift in tranquility.
Michael McClure
Oakland , 2013
[NOTE. The occasion for this posting is the republication in its full glory of Michael McCure’s Ghost Tantras, now available from City Lights|Grey Fox with both the new 2013 introduction & the original introduction from the 1964 edition. From the latter the detailed performance instructions still hold: “Read these poems as you would Lorca, or Mayakovsky, or Lawrence but READ ALOUD AND SING THEM. / These are spontaneous stanzas published in the order and with the natural sounds in which they were first written. If there is an “OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH” simply say a long loud “oooh”. If there is a “gahr” simply say gar and put an h in. / Look at stanza 51. It begins in English and turns into beast language — star becomes stahr. Body becomes boody. Nose becomes noze. Everybody knows how to pronounce NOH or VOOR-NAH or GAHROOOOO ME. / Pronounce sounds as they are spelled and don’t worry about details — let individual pronunciations and vibrations occur and don’t look for secret meanings. Read them aloud and there will be more pleasure.”
My great
pleasure too to publish them here. (J.R.)]
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