(l. to r.): Avrom Sutzkever, Abba Kover and Gershon Abramowicz in the Vilna Ghetto, 1942 |
It’s my intention by posting this here to place Sutzkever as well among our predecessors in one of the core projects of what remains to us of international twentieth-century modernism. (J.R.)]
Green Aquarium
I
“Your teeth are bars of
bone. Behind them, in a crystal cell, your chained words. Remember the advice
of an elder: the guilty ones, who put poisoned pearls in your goblet -- let
them free. As thanks for the pardon, they will build your eternity; but those
others, the innocent ones, who falsely chirp like nightingales over a grave --
don’t spare them. String them up, be their hangman! Because as soon as you let
them out of your mouth, or your pen, they’ll become demons. May the stars not
fall if I speak the truth!”
Years ago, I was left this
will in the lively city of my birth by an old bachelor, a poet somewhat touched
in the head, with a long ponytail in back like a fresh birch broom. No one knew
his name, where he came from. I only know that he wrote rhyming notes to God in
Aramaic, dropped them into the red mailbox near the green bridge, and
thoughtfully, patiently strolled by the Vilia, waiting for the mailman in
Heaven to bring him an answer.
II
“Walk through words like
through a minefield: one false step, one false move, and all the
words which you have threaded onto your veins your whole life will be torn
apart, and you with them...”
That’s what my very own
shadow whispered to me, when both of us, blinded by the reflector-windmills,
traveled by night through a bloody minefield, and every stride of mine set down
for life or death gouged my heart like a nail into a violin.
III
But no one warned me to be
careful of words drunk from otherworldly poppy-blossoms. Thus I became the
servant of their will. And I can’t understand their will. Certainly not the
secret, whether they love or hate me. They wage war in my skull like termites
in a desert. Their battlefield pours out of my eyes with the radiance of
rubies. And children go gray from fear when I tell them, Good-dreaming.
Recently, on an ordinary
day, when I was lying in the garden, with a branch of oranges over me - or was
it kids playing with golden soap bubbles - I felt a movement in my soul. All
right, my words are heading out! Since they had won a victory over somebody,
they obviously decided to take up positions where no words could previously. On
people, angels, and why not stars? Their fantasy plays, drunk on otherworldly
poppy-blossoms.
Trumpets sound.
Torches like burning
birds.
Accompanied by lines.
Frames of music.
I fell to my knees before
one of those words, apparently the overlord, who was riding ahead in a crown in
which my tears were sparkling.
“That’s how you leave me,
no goodbye, no see-you-later, no nothing? We wandered together for years, you
ate from my time, so before we break up, before you go off to conquer worlds --
one request! Give your word you won’t turn it down.”
“Agreed. I give my word.
But without long sentences. Because the sun is bending on the blue branch and
in just a moment it will fall into the abyss.”
“I want to see the dead!”
“That’s quite a
wish...okay, fine. My word is more important to me …. See now!”
A green knife cut open the
earth.
It turned green.
Green.
Green.
Greenness of dark pines
through a fog;
Greenness of a cloud with
a burst gallbladder;
Greenness of mossy stones
in rain;
Greenness revealed by a
hoop rolled by a seven-year-old girl;
Greenness of cabbage
leaves in splinters of dew that bloody the fingers;
First greenness of melted
snow in a circledance around a blue flower;
Greenness of a half-moon,
seen with green eyes from under a wave;
And celebratory greenness
of grasses hemmed around a grave
Greennesses stream into
greennesses. Body into body. And the whole earth has now turned into a green
aquarium.
Closer, closer to the
green swarming!
I look in: people are
swimming here like fish. Numberless phosphorescent faces. Young. Old. And
young-old together. Everyone who I saw my whole life, anointed by death with
green existence; they are all swimming in the green aquarium, in a kind of
silky, airy music.
Here, the dead are alive!
Under them rivers,
forests, cities -- a giant plastic map, and the sun floating above them in the
shape of a fiery person.
I recognize acquaintances
and friends and doff my straw hat to them:
“Good morning.”
They answer with green
smiles, like a well answers a stone with broken rings.
My eyes slap with silver
oars, race, float among all the faces. They search, looking for one face.
“It’s me, darling, me, me!
The wrinkles are just a nest for my longing.”
My lips, swollen with
blood, are drawn to hers. But - oh, no - they are stuck on the glass of the
aquarium.
Her lips swim to mine too.
I feel the breath of burning punch. The glass is a cold cleaver between us.
“I want to read you a
poem, about you, you’ve got to hear it!”
“Darling, I know it by
heart, I’m the one who gave you the words.”
“I want to feel your body
one more time!”
“We can’t get any closer,
the glass, the glass...”
“No, the border will soon
disappear, I’m going to smash the green glass with my head...”
The aquarium shattered
after the twelfth smash.
Where are the lips, the
voice?
And the dead, the dead -
did they die?
Nobody. Facing me - grass, and overhead, an orange
branch, or is it kids playing with golden soap bubbles.
1 comment:
Thank you for posting - one of the best poems I've ever read.
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