To begin ...

As the twentieth century fades out
the nineteenth begins
.......................................again
it is as if nothing happened
though those who lived it thought
that everything was happening
enough to name a world for & a time
to hold it in your hand
unlimited.......the last delusion
like the perfect mask of death

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Amish Trivedi: from “FuturePanic”: What We Remembered Before

 
 

WHAT WE REMEMBERED BEFORE
 
A face climbing
atop an old       
starter motor,    
buried down
and spit-taken
ahead of slender
 
white ether gloves and
parade sheets pulled
over and beginning to
absorb the leaded
ground. Given way
again to
 
another incendiary thin
sprawl but never
 
                                    again, a word
                                    that means a
                                    finger tracing the
 
paths along the arch
of skin near any
finger other than your
 
own: a set                of known
                                    hands soldered together
                                    that even heated will
                                   
                                    begin to crown.
 
Fixtures that break against the ice: moon
light parches a dry throat to
choke and stall out. In way before ash,
we heard vibrations of soil we reached
into, a shaded space beyond your
mouth that gives growth to others.
 
As a memory
just as it was done before
clearings came. Another sensation that
 
comes in when otherness vacates. A descent
and catching the hands in an escape
pose, bringing brickarms
to spin into another form so
brilliant the eyes retract into
their holster. Rearranged
 
to form new compounds
built on the generations
of freedom we
rebelled from,
 
the glass lip tasted
 
but prevented from
blistering under a
skin we've already
known. The next
 
year is always easier
than this one but I
 
                        realize I'm expected
                        to speak in projections
 
that never seem
to clear the teeth
 
utterly.
 
This sequestration, our lungs alighting in
series to develop
a texture its own,
a stigma we designed on time divided. Out pasture
ignition point, the right mixture but rich
with air or ventilated improperly. The
gaze we have again. In
 
the pressured moments beyond
this one, we'll seek
 
against and filtrate our
devoured like a steadied destruction
we cannot believe, alleviated
before us. In the summer the
 
ships go through
the bridge and
 
we hear a cantilever of
swallowed dusk
 
reintroduce it to a
native, painted earth. We
 
                                    were what we ought to
                                    have been all a-
                                    long, not just a
 
reminder of the room
before the
 
reverberation. This tipped
another time
 
without being heard,
satisfied to
fear. Where we were
 
is against a wall too
tall to hold
 
us backwards in an
 
ocean. A dream too
buried by dirt
to carry another
feeling alongside
it. Split along a
vein, adequate again, I
know. This or
 
any justification to
breathe alone in your
reference besides
the terror that
 
seethes through
an absent language. An
                                    absence sustained through
                                    notion, anything matter lacks
                                    it collects as prey, a retraction.
 
If anything that is unseen shows
the depth of another shift,
 
we'll realign ourselves to be
any different kind of
place which cannot remain
 
whenever an unheard system tenses and
recovers. Our tract, re-purposed to
 
                                                begin in seas of
                                                matter— axon, a
                                               
being. Let the litmus be our light
ahead. Your back arcing there
somewhere, a little exposed but
 
I cover my eyes to
unsee you and cover my arms so that I
may undeceive. Say the same thing
 
you always say to everyone else but say
it to the gathered room. In
 
memory, speech
begins as a seed
 
piercing. The things we are begin in
a spark from
a hand and out again, covered,
mistaken and divulged as
certainty.
 
Weaned hour, deplored moment on
the way to another envelopment. Bray
above a roar
 
                        to sound inflexible, really,
                        and putting recognition
                        on. Regain
 
a swollen block where
we will to unknow,
move about the surrounding
spaces. A light out on
 
                                    a stair
                                    well to
                                    ascertain we
 
begin again, a glow too
welcoming to speak
through. Though the air
seems to push us, it's
a retribution from sin. After
 
worry resolves, it
plays, ringing in and over
where everything that
can grow
does not. If
 
our floods are the same, I hope
what we know is masked by
shame and brings sense back
to the land we settled.
 
[NOTE.  Amish Trivedi has for some time been a close associate at Poems and Poetics, some of his earlier work having appeared in the postings of February 25, 2011 and October 7, 2012.  In the present offering he steps forward as a poet working at full capacity, to create, like the best of us, a poetry that tests his & our furthest capabilities & fears.  I wait to see what follows with great anticipation.  (J.R.)] 


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