[Originally published in Current Musicology's recent issue on “experimental writing about music.”]
Preface
This set of poems grew out
of my experiences of listening and finding myself inside nigunim (pl; singular nigun
or nign), Chassidic chants — mystical, usually wordless songs used
as accompaniment for rituals — weddings, prayers, candle-lightings —
collective beckoning of transcendence. The nigun experience is fraught with
what Amiri Baraka called, referring to blues, the “re/feeling” — proximity
and shape of personal history of encounters with
unfathomable.Because most of the nigunim did not have lyrics they were comprised of scat — but a somber sort of a scat: “oi-oi”, “di-dai”, “bah-bom,” etc. Musical instruments were not used to accompany them either, since most of the singing happened on the Sabbath when instruments were put away. Rid of accompaniment, rid of lyrics, these stripped down chants were visceral and prayer-like but washed out of content and filled, instead, with implication — with attempts. At the climax of one of his talks, balancing at the edge of the cognitive void, Rabbi Nachman of Breslov reportedly said: “And even to this, too, there’s an answer. But that answer is necessarily a song.”
These poems attempt to reimagine the sensation of locating oneself inside a nigun.
Induction into Nigun
people turn into rocks
song like waterbeats between them
Blanket Nigun
what this blanket weighs
for days, yr muscles will
remember
feet land on the floor
so cold you begin to feel
a tonic sled, under another
you, under another
blanket, heavier, bigger,
what
it weighs you may never
know—
the cold—
is inside the vision
as blankness, your voice
nesting, missing feathers
lifting off
you
begin
to feel
Painters’ Nigun
On
hearing Frank London’s H.W.N.
this is a song of people
painting walls
walls of a shul that doesn’t
exist
paint rolls upwards
pulled by other gravities
you could celebrate a bris
a yontef
air thickening with paint—
inanimate painted
with breath
breathes
as it is said:
“living words”
painting walls on the
scaffolding of a drum solo
of fists banging a table
which is a real table it’s really here
but the scaffolding is full
of paint the scaffolding is a face
of the shul that doesn’t
exist
the sound rises like an
animal and walks
moving its burden
to the pit
in the shul a pit built for
the chazzan
as it is said “from the
depth . . .”
this yontef commemorates
what
has never happened
but the paint the paint
rolls like walls stands
like sea
walls standing
mercurially
Nigun Au Rebours
this song is not an act but
erasure
the way other songs reach
into you
this one retreats,
taking with it stuff that
seemed nailed to the floor
this song is cinematic in
its reel
you may find yourself
humming its residue
you may wonder who you’re feeding—
through the song’s straw
that ascends
to the pouting mouth
of the vanishing point
Root–Note Nigun
this nigun is about a stick
figure
and the wind over canvas
that bared it—
it’s about a two–bone
abstraction, a solitary
root
note, resounding its
stripped chorus
no aesthetics beyond
instinct—
this nigun is about a
scratch,
a typo, doodle of
person—dropped
into an impressionist
painting
amidst the ball of flesh
and color
and it knows there must be
a mistake
and mumbles all it ever
knows to mumble
—“I exist”—“I exist”—“I
exist”—
a note bent in and out of
the question
this nigun is about a stick
figure
imagining it could change
its fate
by lifting its stick–figure
hands
heavenward
Cecil’s Scarecrow Nigun
for
Anthony Coleman
this nigun is a scarecrow
in your old clothes
it looks a little bit like
you—
a no–thanks–prophecy—
the fence: scarecrow’s
stage and metalepsis
melody lint,
limp sleeves and run–on
paint
everybody here forgets
what they came for—
newly unknotted,
turn
into congregants
dissipating in their coats
the nigun shuckles, rocks
alone
victorious
creaking guardian
in the field of pure color
Amphibian Nigun
needle threads
nothingness
hunks of it
transparent slices of ice
a dress
good for running up and
down
the stairs
of the ancestral dream
ice quickly goes
ice always does
melting ripples around
your face
it’s the puddle–waltz—
for a minute you remember
there’s a world at the
bottom
of your stomach
peopled with memories
sad eyes, winking—
and when you raise your
head and ask for a drink
someone shows you to the
ocean
and says welcome to your
new life
under
the water
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